Lestat

This is going to be a really long post, but I literally lost sleep last night thinking about this haha. 
 
I really also don't know why I'm posting this. Maybe I just need to post it somewhere where people will understand. The community that I love so much.
 
Music really has a way to change us, mold us, and destroy us. 
 
I was super into Versailles when they formed. I had always liked Kamijo, and followed him pretty extensively through his Lareine career; although I had to do it through my friend who liked him, she would get mad if I liked him. But that's a different story.
 
I had been a fan of Versailles since the day they started. I fell in love with "The Revenant Choir" instantly. And I fell even more in love with Jasmine You, the beautiful, talented bassist. 
 
I ended up spending all of the money from my first job on Versailles and D stuff. To the point where I made stupid mistakes and overdrafted my account and my parents had to bail me out hah. But I knew that I had found something amazing. Versailles touched my heart in so many ways. 
 
I ended up owning (and still do), their entire discography up through Jubilee. Including rare live-only cds and things I had to use shopping services to purchase. I had to have it, I had to support this amazingly talented band. 
 
And then it hit me like a bag of bricks. Jasmine You had passed away. As quickly as they had come, they were gone. And I couldn't handle it. I was such a huge fan of his, I lost it. I had never cried over a celebrity death before, but I literally played "Episode" over 1,000 times, my grief was very strong. I didn't know how to deal with the fact that a musician that I loved so dearly was gone from the world. 
 
I didn't touch Versailles for years. I wouldn't follow them, wouldn't buy their other cds. I was grieving in that way. I didn't want to hear Versailles without Jasmine in it. And whenever any of their Jasmine-included songs would play, I would skip it, as it would upset me to the point of tears. I just couldn't do it.
 
Last night, I was watching some Kamijo videos. I can listen to his solo stuff just fine. And Lareine, too. Lareine is one of my favorite older bands; so I'm okay with them. On youtube, I was just clicking around. Watching Kamijo video after video. And then I saw it. 
 
"Remember Forever." 
 
A song dedicated to Jasmine, that I had never listened to, because it was on a cd that I had never bought. That I didn't know existed, because I had excluded myself from the world of Versailles. It was a live video, so I clicked on it.
 
I was not expecting the emotional ride that I went on. Purple lights on the stage; lights for him. For my bassist. And a song that was so beautiful, I started bawling my eyes out. It was written for him, and you could tell. The quietness of the audience made it even more real. But it was beautiful.
 
After I had finished watching it, I spent a lot of time just listening to Versailles. Thinking about Jasmine, and how happy he had made me when he was alive. And I realized that I shouldn't be afraid of change. I should continue to go on, even if something sad, or horrible happens. And that I should continue on. 
 
Jasmine is a beautiful person, a memory that should never be forgotten. And I never will forget about him. It'll be 10 years in November since his passing. And I think I'm brave enough to play Versailles again. To REALLY enjoy them again. 
 
For Jasmine's sake. 
 
 

Yooo, like my status if you're down to participate in another trade-off!

The -Smooth Criminal- trade-off from 2017 is still my favourite. I want to see something similar soon.

Rest in peace, Stan Lee. 

Rest in peace, Stan Lee. 

stan twitter literally warned u for years, flat-earthers, but u never listen x
 

(moran open rp)

u walk in. i'm brushing my hair in front of a decadent maroon vanity. the smell of my gucci perfume is in the air. my chrome hearts necklace glimmers in the dim light to the sound of メランコリア。
 
u: what r u listening to , b ａｂｅ？

me: just the most amazing 音源集!

u: what could it be????

me: *giggling*  jen:ga - buy it on cdjapan.

i laugh and disappear into the ether.  in the distance, soan weeps. 

Rest in soul, Aretha Franklin. 

Rest in soul, Aretha Franklin. 

Rest in soul, Aretha Franklin. 

Rest in soul, Aretha Franklin. 

what my room looks like when i'm organizing cds x_x
 

 

LIVE IMAGES OF JAPAN'S SECOND GOAL:
 

This new trend of harassing the 14-year old Millie Bobby Brown is just disgusting. Are people thát jealous that they have to fake an uprising actress being a racist, homophobic bully and causing her to shut down from social media? Honestly, the internet is getting more pathetic every day. These people are genuinely excited about bullying a teenager in her most vulnerable stage of life. This will scar her for life, great job everyone. 

Man, Akira is such a great vocalist. Makes me wish this MIRAGE revival were to actually resume formal activities. I would even put up with kisaki's regular bullshit to see Akira getting more exposure to his other projects

Unexpectedly had to put our bunny down today. Sleep well, little fuzzball. 

Unexpectedly had to put our bunny down today. Sleep well, little fuzzball. 

Unexpectedly had to put our bunny down today. Sleep well, little fuzzball. 

We're plugging this Sunday! https://plug.dj/monochrome-heaven/

Back from my Japan trip, I got and bought so much vk shit lmao I'll upload other stuff later cause I'm lazy right now 

I can't catch up with Japanese fashion anymore.

I want to try LSD so badly lol.
It sounds like a nice experience imo - but idk. anyone who would try it once with me haha x: