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Lestat reacted to RaeDesu for a status update, This is going to be a really long post, but I literally lost sleep last night thinkin
This is going to be a really long post, but I literally lost sleep last night thinking about this haha.
I really also don't know why I'm posting this. Maybe I just need to post it somewhere where people will understand. The community that I love so much.
Music really has a way to change us, mold us, and destroy us.
I was super into Versailles when they formed. I had always liked Kamijo, and followed him pretty extensively through his Lareine career; although I had to do it through my friend who liked him, she would get mad if I liked him. But that's a different story.
I had been a fan of Versailles since the day they started. I fell in love with "The Revenant Choir" instantly. And I fell even more in love with Jasmine You, the beautiful, talented bassist.
I ended up spending all of the money from my first job on Versailles and D stuff. To the point where I made stupid mistakes and overdrafted my account and my parents had to bail me out hah. But I knew that I had found something amazing. Versailles touched my heart in so many ways.
I ended up owning (and still do), their entire discography up through Jubilee. Including rare live-only cds and things I had to use shopping services to purchase. I had to have it, I had to support this amazingly talented band.
And then it hit me like a bag of bricks. Jasmine You had passed away. As quickly as they had come, they were gone. And I couldn't handle it. I was such a huge fan of his, I lost it. I had never cried over a celebrity death before, but I literally played "Episode" over 1,000 times, my grief was very strong. I didn't know how to deal with the fact that a musician that I loved so dearly was gone from the world.
I didn't touch Versailles for years. I wouldn't follow them, wouldn't buy their other cds. I was grieving in that way. I didn't want to hear Versailles without Jasmine in it. And whenever any of their Jasmine-included songs would play, I would skip it, as it would upset me to the point of tears. I just couldn't do it.
Last night, I was watching some Kamijo videos. I can listen to his solo stuff just fine. And Lareine, too. Lareine is one of my favorite older bands; so I'm okay with them. On youtube, I was just clicking around. Watching Kamijo video after video. And then I saw it.
"Remember Forever."
A song dedicated to Jasmine, that I had never listened to, because it was on a cd that I had never bought. That I didn't know existed, because I had excluded myself from the world of Versailles. It was a live video, so I clicked on it.
I was not expecting the emotional ride that I went on. Purple lights on the stage; lights for him. For my bassist. And a song that was so beautiful, I started bawling my eyes out. It was written for him, and you could tell. The quietness of the audience made it even more real. But it was beautiful.
After I had finished watching it, I spent a lot of time just listening to Versailles. Thinking about Jasmine, and how happy he had made me when he was alive. And I realized that I shouldn't be afraid of change. I should continue to go on, even if something sad, or horrible happens. And that I should continue on.
Jasmine is a beautiful person, a memory that should never be forgotten. And I never will forget about him. It'll be 10 years in November since his passing. And I think I'm brave enough to play Versailles again. To REALLY enjoy them again.
For Jasmine's sake.
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Lestat reacted to CAT5 for a status update, Yooo, like my status if you're down to participate in another trade-off!
Yooo, like my status if you're down to participate in another trade-off!
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Lestat got a reaction from reminiscing2004 for a status update, The -Smooth Criminal- trade-off from 2017 is still my favourite. I want to see someth
The -Smooth Criminal- trade-off from 2017 is still my favourite. I want to see something similar soon.
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Lestat got a reaction from Gesu for a status update, Rest in peace, Stan Lee.
Rest in peace, Stan Lee.
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Lestat got a reaction from Visutox for a status update, Rest in peace, Stan Lee.
Rest in peace, Stan Lee.
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Lestat reacted to nekkichi for a status update, stan twitter literally warned u for years, flat-earthers, but u never listen x
stan twitter literally warned u for years, flat-earthers, but u never listen x
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Lestat reacted to The Moon for a status update, (moran open rp) u walk in. i'm brushing my hair in front of a decadent maroon vanity.
(moran open rp)
u walk in. i'm brushing my hair in front of a decadent maroon vanity. the smell of my gucci perfume is in the air. my chrome hearts necklace glimmers in the dim light to the sound of メランコリア。
u: what r u listening to , b abe?
me: just the most amazing 音源集!
u: what could it be????
me: *giggling* jen:ga - buy it on cdjapan.
i laugh and disappear into the ether. in the distance, soan weeps.
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Lestat got a reaction from colorful人生 for a status update, Rest in soul, Aretha Franklin.
Rest in soul, Aretha Franklin.
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Lestat got a reaction from Ada Suilen for a status update, Rest in soul, Aretha Franklin.
Rest in soul, Aretha Franklin.
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Lestat got a reaction from Wakarimashita for a status update, Rest in soul, Aretha Franklin.
Rest in soul, Aretha Franklin.
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Lestat got a reaction from suji for a status update, Rest in soul, Aretha Franklin.
Rest in soul, Aretha Franklin.
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Lestat reacted to hiroki for a status update, what my room looks like when i'm organizing cds x_x
what my room looks like when i'm organizing cds x_x
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Lestat reacted to chemicalpictures for a status update, LIVE IMAGES OF JAPAN'S SECOND GOAL:
LIVE IMAGES OF JAPAN'S SECOND GOAL:
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Lestat got a reaction from Komorebi for a status update, This new trend of harassing the 14-year old Millie Bobby Brown is just disgusting. Ar
This new trend of harassing the 14-year old Millie Bobby Brown is just disgusting. Are people thát jealous that they have to fake an uprising actress being a racist, homophobic bully and causing her to shut down from social media? Honestly, the internet is getting more pathetic every day. These people are genuinely excited about bullying a teenager in her most vulnerable stage of life. This will scar her for life, great job everyone.
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Lestat reacted to chemicalpictures for a status update, Man, Akira is such a great vocalist. Makes me wish this MIRAGE revival were to actual
Man, Akira is such a great vocalist. Makes me wish this MIRAGE revival were to actually resume formal activities. I would even put up with kisaki's regular bullshit to see Akira getting more exposure to his other projects
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Lestat got a reaction from Ozileras10 for a status update, Unexpectedly had to put our bunny down today. Sleep well, little fuzzball.
Unexpectedly had to put our bunny down today. Sleep well, little fuzzball.
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Lestat got a reaction from CAT5 for a status update, Unexpectedly had to put our bunny down today. Sleep well, little fuzzball.
Unexpectedly had to put our bunny down today. Sleep well, little fuzzball.
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Lestat got a reaction from WhirlingBlack for a status update, Unexpectedly had to put our bunny down today. Sleep well, little fuzzball.
Unexpectedly had to put our bunny down today. Sleep well, little fuzzball.
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Lestat got a reaction from suji for a status update, We're plugging this Sunday! https://plug.dj/monochrome-heaven/
We're plugging this Sunday! https://plug.dj/monochrome-heaven/
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Lestat reacted to Kiryu999 for a status update, Back from my Japan trip, I got and bought so much vk shit lmao I'll upload other stuf
Back from my Japan trip, I got and bought so much vk shit lmao I'll upload other stuff later cause I'm lazy right now
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Lestat reacted to nick for a status update, I can't catch up with Japanese fashion anymore.
I can't catch up with Japanese fashion anymore.
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Lestat reacted to AliceParanoid for a status update, I want to try LSD so badly lol. It sounds like a nice experience imo - but idk. anyon
I want to try LSD so badly lol.
It sounds like a nice experience imo - but idk. anyone who would try it once with me haha x: